Uncertain

I sit here hundreds of miles away,
Watching the phone praying it doesn't ring,
Terrified at the news that it might bring:
That a great man has passed away.
No news is good news it is always said,
But I dont think it can be applied here.
No information in this case breeds fear
When dealing with a tumor in the head.
With nothing but time, I bow and I pray,
The prayer of a desperate grandson-
That his grandfather's race not yet be done,
As I have done so many times today,
Trying to bargain and negotiate
Any way I can to befriend the Fates....